Unstable moments

I swim in a sea of emotion

 

Vacation ends

I am back to the reality of life

Emails begin

Requesting wording and decisions

Calls to be made

Contacts and meetings

 

Not ready I spiral in the maelstrom

Not wanting to give up the high

Not ready to come down to earth.

Not wanting responsibility

 

You have been with me all along

Grounding me

Balancing the high

Not stifling me

Supporting me

Not smothering

But tethering

 

Opportunity to be free

Experience growth

Be the butterfly I need to be

Expanding my knowledge and experience

Explore the world as scientist

Experience living in other patterns

Explore myself as I grow!

 

I often wonder if I am good for you.

Am I the rebound, the chrysalis

The shiny new experience that launches you on your own path to the butterfly you will be?

Your growth slowed by this powerful experience

Like a butterfly grounded in the storm

Not realising it is just the first step.

On your personal journey

 

When I first began

After the darkness began to lift.

He was part of that for me.

Telling me that I could be loved

 

Knowing that someone found me

Not the “perfect” or “right” someone

Someone beyond my norm

Teaching me to reach

To explore the possibilities

Reach beyond my expectations

 

Along the way we ebbed and flowed

Sometimes strongly attached

Sometimes not at all

A thin filament of connection

There to be strengthened when needed

Able to shrink too when needed

 

Will I be that for you

Will you outgrow me?

Or will we grow together.

Even from afar

 

Will we find that balance